Good News!

Guess what everyone?

NAO FINALLY REPLIED MY EMAIL! ^^

She said she's fine, same goes to her family and her cats! 

I was told that her house is on a hill, so it was out of reach ╭(⫪∀⫪;)╮there's no water and electricity at the moment though.

Thank you for replying my email Nao ╭(⫪∀⫪;)╮ I'm so glad!

Alhamdulillah

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It was St. Patrick's day yesterday, on the same day, some university staffs (including lecturers) went on strike over changes to pension plans. As a result, classes cancelled! Unlucky for me ╰(￣Д￣;)╮my lecturer is so rich already (or maybe passion over money?).

But....╭(◉Д◉;)╮I missed my class anyway! No no, not that I thought my class was cancelled too. I actually got mixed up with my time schedule.

The final session just started this week btw. 

So what have I been doing all day?

I finally got my chance to talk to my girls ╰( ≥ ∀ ≤ )╯
 I enjoyed it very much.

 It's been a very long time since called and chatted with my old time buddies.

 I remember those days when I used to spend hours and hours on the phone talking to my friends, guess I have become quite independent nowadays.

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*please ignore my English*
Actually there's too many things in my mind. 
My paranoia and negativeness have caused a great stress that leads abdominal pains. 

At times like these, 

you need those people who knows you best, 

those people who knows your real life story.

I could still feel the pain when I woke up this morning. 

Thank god Faridah was free to listen, and it works, she made me feel so much better afterwards. Thank you.

I am not the type of person who can keep her things to her self. 

Yet it's a VERY bad idea to let it go to the wrong person (which, by the way, I did)

I have a problem of being too honest, too friendly to everyone and trusting people so easily :( 

I should learn to choose my friends I can express my feelings to..... But it's so darn HARD!

Truth is, there's nothing about me my close friends don't know. 

Why Im freakin' stress now is because I'm not used to keeping the painful thought all by myself. Yet, I get so busy with uni work not wanting to waste time.

Jeri? Lol. Of course I talked to him about it :P but he always give me a reality slap instead, T,T Sigh, I know he's just saying the truth, but sometimes you need some words of comfort even though it not true. 

Kitani perempuan melayu kan, sentiasa memerlukan kata-kata yang menyamankan ati. 

Like when a fucking ugly girl asked "Am I really fucking ugly?", then the other person should say "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? YOU'RE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL."

END (before it get worst)

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I feel rather tomboy-ish today...

*sorry, it's blurry, photo was taken with laptop*

"You said you have speech problem, but you sounded just fine!"

I guess that's what some of you were thinking when you did read my previous post and watched my vlog.

The reason why I sounded 'okay' in my vlog (atleast some of you think so) is because it was taken from 5 different video shots.

Truth is, there were many silent gaps in between and well...mumblings!

And some people who know me in person said:

It's my accent la = = It changes with the people who I talk to as well as the things that surround me. 

This is one of things I never thought I am capable of.  

Actually that has always been included in one of the Bruneian list:

4) You know you are a Bruneian if: You speak Malaysia if you meet Malaysian, speak Indonesia if you meet Indonesian.. and so on.

(Source)

I was always marked as a 'non-typical Bruneian' by my friends because I don't/can't do what most Brunei people do.

So changing the accent easily is one of the things I could not do - 

 = =  I actually speak Bru-lish (Brunei English) to my Malaysian friends lol. 

Mm...........I think I should include this too

You know you are a Bruneian if: You sound very American when you are a fluent English speaker.  (even though our school teach British English, we grow up watching American TV programme)

This doesn't apply to me btw╭(⫪∀⫪;)╮

But half of my friends were thought they came from America when they speak to the people here in uk.

Like I said, I'm not good at catching accents. 

But then again
 surprise-surprise, 
I actually can! (eventhough it takes a longggggg time)

I didn't notice it at all until my friends pointed it out, 

especially when I talk to Jeri. 

Also, some of my course mates thought I was brought up in Scotland because of the way I speak to them - But that only happened when I spent a few days with them lol. 

When I go back to my Bruneian friends, everything switched off, 
and even if I tried too, I sounded so fake. 

One other thing I realised about me is that - no british/scottish accent can come out when atleast one close friend (usually asian) is with me. Lol, okay why am I even telling you all this, such useless detail 

I made the vlog just when I came back from Uni when some bits were still left on.

 I'm saying all this to clarify everything, 

see how paranoid I am now? :/ 

But other than that,

 I guess I learned something about me that I never knew,

 I can now proudly tick myself into one of the Bruneian list :P (the accent changing bit) 

But wait, does it still apply since Im a slow-catcher? 

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Before I end this post,

I would like to thank Mizarwen for making this beautiful scrap layout that includes a photo of me in it (together with Aznuur and Esma). 

;D I LOVE!!